I bet you are wondering what letters is she talking about lol.
A couple of years back I had the courage to embark on my CPA (Chartered Professional Accountant) journey. I had toyed with the idea for a few years as I was not sure if that was something I really wanted to do (talk about adulthood decisions).
I had everything planned out from start to finish. I love being in control so I mapped out my schedule and knew exactly when I will take my breaks and finish the whole program. I knew it was going to be challenging but I underestimated how this was going to stretch me. Fast forward to now, I have had to retake exams 4 times and take some breaks which I never accounted for in my original plan. As a sensitive person (I mean verrry sensitive) every “Fail” was accompanied by tons of tears.
For so long I have felt like I can’t talk about this journey until I have earned the designation which comes with the letters “CPA” after my name. There is also a part of me saying there might be someone going through the same thing and they feel alone so talk about it. So here I am talking about it. It has not been easy and I’m very much aware that it is not meant to be easy. If I’m being honest, sometimes I feel ashamed that it’s taking me this long to get it done. Sometimes I wonder; will I ever get it done? Is this for me? Should I quit? NO! NO! 2021 WE ARE NOT QUITTING! I know it will mean the world to me seeing this through.
Seeing fellow candidates earn their stripes is a double-edged sword. It reminds me that this is doable, and I too can do it. On the other end, it stings really bad. The sting comes with a voice in my head that says, “Are they not your mates?! What are you still doing?!”.
I have had to catch myself, be kind, and remind myself that good things take a lot of work and time. There is nothing wrong with taking a break and continuing when I am in a good mental space. I must remind myself that this is not a sprint it’s a marathon, so I need to celebrate every little step that I manage to take (I have passed 3 out of 7 modules so that’s something right?). Be happy for those who have achieved their 3 letters and understand that we all have different paths. Maybe this might not be my path but only time will tell and when that time comes, I need to be ok with that. Or maybe my path is just longer, I will eventually get there and earn the 3 letters after my name: “Alphine Makoni, CPA”.
All this to say, if you are pursuing something, “DO NOT GIVE UP” for there is light at the end of the tunnel. It might not be easy but keep your head down, keep pushing, and talk about it; there is always someone willing to lend an ear; I know I am, and I look forward to hearing from you my lovely blog readers.
“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”