I’m typing this on a random Sunday night or should I say Monday morning (1am). A few months ago, I told myself that I was going to write you a letter in the hopes that one day you will read it. So here we go!

My baby, my first seed, I am so grateful and blessed to be your Mama. To say you are in for a treat is an understatement because you are walking into a family packed with interesting, funny, yet loving people who are ready to shower you with snuggles and love. I can be extra so get ready for all the matching outfits. This will probably be ongoing until you say, “Mama zvakwana (enough).” Your Daddy; hmmm I’m not going to expose him today lol. All I can say is that you are one blessed girl to have him. Your Aunt Faith already gave us a heads up that going forward, we won’t be receiving any Christmas gifts as all her money will be spent on you lol #richauntyvibes.

One thing you should know about your Mama; I feel better when I’m in control. Now, I’m still learning to let go and let God because nothing about this journey of growing you has allowed me to be in control. Some days are easier, some are just buckets of tears when I feel achy, tired or some insensitive things have been said to me. Trusting God has brought us this far.

When you were just a thought, I told myself I would keep you a secret because if something was to happen to you then I won’t have to explain anything to anybody. That was my biggest reason. As time passed, I quickly realized that I’m already thinking of the worst instead of enjoying this season. Your daddy gave me the perfect scenario. He said imagine not telling anyone about your new job because you are scared that you will be fired. As scary as this is for me, no more hibernating; I’m going to enjoy my summer (before you come and turn my current schedule to dust) and celebrate the blessing that you are to us. My prayer is that we raise you in a way that glorifies God’s kingdom and be good examples to you. I need you to know that it’s okay to celebrate your highs and share your lows when you feel comfortable to do so.

We prayed for you, we are grateful for you and we are so ready for you! I love you.

-Mama M.